The Blog Works!

I haven't written on here this week. It's amazing how quickly time passes sometimes. This last week has been filled with highs...and unfortunately, today, a crushing low. Stupid, but crushed me nonetheless. It's the meds, too. Pain killers mess with your mind, you know? Anyone with any kind of injury, or constant pain, knows what I'm saying. Anyone on anti-depressants knows what I'm saying! :) But I wish I could handle the "blips" on my otherwise great life, better. I immediately found the Hostess pie that I had been so proud of for not touching, even though it had been in the house for well over three weeks. In a sense, I was glad it was the only thing I over-indulged in. I wanted to go to McDonald's, or go get tacos, or something "comforting." But I stopped, and thought. The saving grace has been you, Lisa, and this blog. PTL for my brain sometimes. I can always count on it for (over) thinking...I just am proud of myself when I use it for the right reasons, and make the right choices, and come to the right conclusion. :)

I have my issues about doing this blog. Some days I love it, and some days, I feel it isn't really accomplishing anything. But that's the way all of life is. Things can change from one thing to another so quickly! God, and women, especially, for me anyway, my moods are all over the place, only taken to new heights because of my meds. I'm gonna go crazy, I swear! But today I thought about the blog I wrote titled MEN, and how I said I'm not gonna let bad moments have so much power over me that I lose control of the things that I AM IN CONTROL OF! And I am in control of my choices of what I eat, and what I let myself feel about my choices. I can't change what other people do or say, or understand the reasons that some things happen. I can only make myself happy, and find the things that help me do it. Sometimes I get stuck in a low place. And that's when I realized that this blog is helping. I have a place to let it out, instead of stuffing it down with food, and that's comforting

You know not every blog on here will be specifically about what I ate today, and how many pounds I lost or gained. But that's because a lot of my issues that cause me to eat are emotional. Clearly, I am the overly emotional, excessively expressive one on here! :) Deal with it...you know that's me! LOL But, it's a lot of the reasons we choose to eat the things we do - emotional eating. I think you and I are both that way. But thanks for being there for me. Even though you aren't right by my side, you're as close to me as you can be, and you never let me down when I need you. So I'm sending you my love, and saying thanks for giving me a place to deal, instead of hiding and eating. And I think I'm living for the day that I put the pharmaceutical company out of business because I'm finally off my pain medications...I just know without me, they're gonna be seeing a significant decrease in cash flow! ;)